25 things about me

It was a note on facebook which I stumbled across. I'd written it ages ago, but most of the things are still so relevant.

1. I LOVE dancing. I live to dance. Its my one passion that has never died out, even when everything else has/had.

2. That 70s Show is an obsession. I love Kelso, I just hope my kid isn't as dumb as him. I'd kill him if he is. I want to marry Fez, just so that I can hear him talk in that brilliant accent all day long.

3. My family are like the nerves of my body, and my friends are the blood running in it. I cant live without either.

4. I hate pretentious, liar-ly people. Like, forget about the rest of the world and what they think. If you think what you're doing is right, go ahead and do it. Whether its making out, having sex, killing someone or breaking someones heart. Stop pretending to like someone when you actually dont.

5. No matter what anyone says, I believe that beyond everything, no one's a genuinely "bad" person. Call it naive, stupid or immature. I still believe everyone is innately good. When people do bad things, its their bad side getting the better of them. It doesnt make them bad people. (I guess there can be VERY few exceptions, Narendra Modi would be one).

6. This is picked up from a mail, but I had to put it in cuz its so true: Dont say 'I love you' unless you REALLY mean it. But when you mean it, say it alot, people forget.

7. Everyone gets hurt. Its not a new thing, we've all been through it, and we've all to get over it. Quoting Foamy the Squirrel who I absolutely love: "Dont you have better things to do with your life than be emotionally attached to someone who hates your guts? Do something with your life!... at the very least shoot yourself."

8. I hate it when Im told to think about 'people who have bigger problems than me' when Im depressed. LET ME BE. I want to bask in the glory (or sorrow) of my depression. If you cant deal with that then fine, Im depressed for those people who have bigger problems, happy? ( I guess my first post ever was inspired by this point! :)

9. I love Gloria Jeans' coffee. Mint chocolate bomb. YUM! =)

10. Yes, my dream was to become the President of India. And I truly believed I would one day. Oh well :)

11. My mom is my idol when it comes to morals, and my dad is my idol when it comes practicality. My aunt is my idol when it comes to hotness and fitness.

12. I always have a liking for older males. Much more than I do for boys my age. Somehow.

13. I believe in love at first sight, it can totally happen. Im a complete romantic at heart. I love flattery, as long as its not fake and false. I love love. And I love loving love <3 =)

14. I love Mohammad Rafi's, Kishore Kumar's and Jagjit Singh's songs. Ive been for a Jagjit Singh concert and I dont think Ive ever loved life or love more than I did at that moment. I have my pensive moods every once in a while where I only listen to old hindi music. And someone having a problem with that or finding it amusing isn't going to make me stop.

15. My top 25 most played songs include: Everything by Lifehouse, Kuch Khaas from Fashion, Kehna Hi Kya from Bombay, Innocence by Avril, Breathe by Anna Nalick, Basketcase by Green Day, PS-I love you soundtrack by Chuck Prophet and Zara Zara from RHTDM. These are the songs I can listen to ANYTIME.

16. A lot of people think Im an outgoing extrovert who loves partying and the likes, but anyone who knows me any better would know that Id choose lying at home on my dark purple diwaan near my window, under the white silk blanket that my grandma got me, my iPod, a book and the AC at 21 degrees, over any party or outing in the world.

17. Amore ice-cream is better than Baskin Robbins, Gelato, Mama Mia and Naturals. Stop living in denial, suckers.

18. Best friend is a term very loosely used. I guess that's cuz it shows how much you care for the person, how much you talk, and that you really know them well. But its more than that. Its not talking for days on end and still being able to catch up where you left off from. Its understanding when the person is forgetful enough to always forget to call back, and calling them for the 100th time in a day when they've forgotten. Its calling for the 100th time and still having things to talk about :) Its running off to hillstations together, without telling anyone. Its surprising them at 12 on their birthday night. Its ditching them when they're going for a movie alone with someone they dont want to, because you think its funny. Its being able to make and take jokes. Its being their maid of honour and dancing your butt off at their wedding. Its talking till 3 in the morning about nothing at all.

19. I think Abhay Deol is hot. And I would give up absolutely anything in the world to marry Mark Ruffalo.

20. I dont think psychology is easy, or stupid. Its brilliant and intellectual, like me :)

21. I love sunsets. Im sure I would love sunrises as well, if I ever woke up early enough to see one.

22. I dont think you always need to have a guy/girl in your life. Single-ness can be very productive to find out more about yourself and who you want to be. Even if your hormones are going wild and you're becoming insanely horny. Self-control is one of the few virtues which can be developed.

23. Its still fun to have a guy in your life :P

24. Birthdays are super special. Its YOUR day in the year. The day you came into the world, how many ever years back. How can there be anyone who doesn't find THAT special?

25. Never regret anything that made you smile. :)

The Time Of Your Life

School friends. They're supposed to last....hmmm...forever.

We go off to university, come back on Christmas, in summer, looking forward to rekindling old bonds.

That's what I was like.

And here I am, back in the city I grew up in, and all I do is sort out rumors, deal with fights, and hear new bitching sessions everyday. We're not in school anymore. In school the gossiping and bitching was fine, fun, even (albeit our school crossed all lines and boundaries... The last year of high school, when we were 17 year olds, nothing surprised us. Not cheating lovers, not flings with younger people, nothing.) But now we've all moved on, to our new lives, to university, where no one cares about who you kissed that night or how many people you slept with on this night. Where everyone hangs out, but eventually leads their own life. I like this life. I love this life where I can be part of a group whenever and detach whenever, not having to worry about what rumors are spreading today.

And then I come back in summer. And it all starts over. Just like high school, you say? No. Worse than high school. And I thought that was never possible!

People don't change. You can go live in another country with new people and lead a brand new life, but you always stay the same person in your core. And your past, it never, ever leaves you. People say "Move on, get over it." How do you move on when everyday someone makes a joke about it? How do you get over it when the person is sitting right in front of you, one amongst all your friends?

You mend your life after a bad break-up. You heal your heart after a friend has abandoned you at time of need. But you dont get over it. It stays with you; everytime you find a new lover, every time you make a new "best friend", every time you start trusting, every time you start loving. The fear that, like the last time, this time too will turn out to be devastating, or ruined, if nothing else. The fear stays with you for a long, long time.

I like to believe that one day, a person will come along and free me of these fears, these precautions I take every time I start a new relationship. I like to believe that my school years, even with the gossiping and bitching and back-biting, will remain in my memory as the best time of my life. I like to believe... Because i have nothing else to go by.